Balesh

“Balesh (Pillow)” is the fourth track from the conceptual album “Az Pist Ta Amma.” After the movement, pressure, self-construction and loneliness of the first three chapters, the album enters a softer, more intimate space for the first time.

Here, the narrator is no longer focused only on fighting the outside world. Instead, the song centers on a presence capable of quieting the noise inside — something that arrives in the narrator's thoughts at night, almost as naturally as their head reaches the pillow.

“Balesh” explores a form of euphoria that does not depend on anything external.

For a long time, the narrator was constantly thinking about the future: something distant that had to be found, built or fought for. Eventually, that search changes. The future no longer feels like a faraway destination.

The realization becomes simple:

“You are my future.”

That line marks the moment the constant search inside the narrator's mind begins to stop.

The image of a “heart surgeon” extends the same idea. This presence does not simply create excitement; it creates calm. A heart once surrounded by pressure and noise begins to beat more peacefully, as though something inside has been repaired without any literal operation taking place.

The chorus offers another definition of intoxication.

The narrator invites someone to experience happiness without cigarettes, a lighter, LSD or any external substance. The idea is not a rejection of pleasure. It is an attempt to experience pleasure directly — to dance, laugh, relax and feel alive while remaining completely present.

Here, intoxication is replaced by connection.

The second verse acknowledges that external limitations still exist. The line “I'm in Iran, but my mind is free” separates physical circumstances from internal freedom. The world outside may impose boundaries, but thought, imagination, affection and inner experience can still move beyond them.

One of the track's most intimate moments arrives when the narrator admits that this presence has become repetitive — and that the repetition itself has become beautiful.

What might normally be associated with boredom becomes a form of security.

It means something has remained long enough to become familiar. Something no longer needs constant novelty to prove its importance.

The narrator talks to this presence while alone, carries it everywhere and feels that it never truly moves away. What began as a recurring thought gradually becomes part of everyday existence.

“Balesh” is not about escaping life.

It is about finding something within life that makes escape unnecessary.

After three tracks built around movement, struggle, growth and isolation, the fourth chapter slows the album down. For the first time, the narrator does not simply want to keep moving forward. They want to stay beside something.